Sunday, June 1, 2014
Friday, May 23, 2014
My soul knows, with greatest certainty, that His works are wonderful. Knows it because I have seen it,
But what about when I can't see it?
What about the times when my soul is dry and thirsty, my heart fragile and broken and longing for something more?
When life is hard -- His works are wonderful.
When the way seems long -- His works are wonderful.
When life is not turning out the way I expected -- His works are wonderful.
When teenagers die and we at House of Faith have to walk through that valley with the families and other students and we are surrounded by pain and grief and questions with no answers...His works are wonderful.
So when I don't see it, feel it, taste it -- the truth doesn't change.
I just have to remind myself of it, rehearse it over and over until it is thoroughly, permanently, inerasably embedded in the deepest parts of my soul. To not forget in the dark what I have so clearly seen in the light.
So through heartache, pain, long days and lonely nights I will remind my soul of this reality it knows very well:
Tuesday, April 8, 2014
Because God Almighty--
the One who created the universe?
the One whom victory meets at every step?
Yeah, He walks with you.
He carries you,
He has chosen you,
He holds your hand,
He is your Redeemer.
(Isaiah 41, summarized and paraphrased :) )
Saturday, September 7, 2013
"I have given myself clear away."
The sweet reality of this given life is that
- I used to be SO okay with clutter and chaos. It simply did not faze me. Piles of stuff or clothes or paper everywhere, a room that looked like a tornado blew through--I was fine. I could work and rest and live in that environment with peace and even my own sort of efficiency. My stuff was "filed" in stacks, but I could find what I needed when I needed it!
But then...God put His finger on this area and aspect of my life with a simple declaration: "I am a God of order." Since He's choosing in my life, if He wants a clean, organized room and office (since those, really, are my only areas of jurisdiction), then that's what He gets. So I started going through things, getting rid of things, organizing things...it's still a work in process (please don't look in my loft right now), but the craziest part of the deal is how He's changed my heart and desires in this area. I now need the order and organization He is bringing into my life, though not in a "I can't function if things aren't just the way I want it" sort of way (because that is equally unhealthy). Rather, it's more of a "I need to do all in my power to order my surroundings in a way that reflects my God, who is a God of order" kind of way. :)
- My natural tendency is to take a rather lackadaisical approach to life much of the time. (Side note: I looked up "lackadaisical" to make sure I was spelling it right, and here's one definition: "lazy or idle,esp in a dreamy way". Ummmm....yeah. Especially the dreamy way. Did I ever tell y'all the story of how my dad once stood and watched me wash the same plate for 10 minutes? I love to create my own little world, and then live in it.)This usually applies mostly to how I spend my free time, and the effort I put into relationships. Again, God has put His finger on this area of my life through reminding me that my time is His, and that people are of the utmost importance to Him. So, there are some things I've had to cut out of my life (movies, TV, games on my phone, etc...not because those things are inherently evil, but because they were absorbing pretty much ALL my "extra" time). This, of course, is also how I've managed to have time to organize my room...see, it all fits together!
I've also been working on being more intentional with my relationships...things like, getting up early in the morning to go play tennis or basketball with my brothers, or taking them out to breakfast sometimes on a Friday morning, or just learning to have real conversations with people instead of talking about things that simply don't matter in the long run.
Friday, May 24, 2013
I'm working on learning to be more intentional with life, not letting my time and energy be so much controlled by "the tyranny of the urgent". I'm still definitely a work in progress!! But one of the things on my "live life on purpose" list is blogging, so I'll try to be more consistent with this!
For tonight, I'm just going to post something I wrote a while back. I've been, in various ways, a part of House of Faith for nearly 3 years now, but it feels somehow like I've always been there. :) One of my favorite things about HOF is the opportunity to be involved in TWO of the Backyard Bible Clubs, where we take Jesus into the yards of the elementary schools and the lives of the K-5th grade students who attend them. Every Wednesday and Thursday afternoon finds me out in a yard, checking in over a hundred children and then loving them however I can. Sometimes, it's crazy and challenging, but I love it!! :) Goliad, my Wednesday club, has been especially challenging this year on a number of levels, and I have been stretched and grown tremendously through it.
Our weekly programs that we have during the school year are over for this year, but this little reflection is something I wrote one Wednesday evening as I thought back over my day at Goliad BBC and the 150+ kids who are there that hold my heart...
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Only Trust Him/House of Fizzle
House of Fizzle is an affectionate nickname for House of Faith. Because things are usually "fizzling" around here. Or something. I didn't come up with the nickname, I just laughed at Mindi and Eva the day I heard them answer the phone like that and then decided it was a fitting nickname somehow.
but I digress.
So...since it's been forever since I blogged, I guess a long, rambling post catching everyone up on my life is in order.
Maybe someday I'll get around to said long, rambling post, but tonight is not that day. In the words of Inigo Montoya on "The Princess Bride": "Let me 'splain.
February I started interning full-time (read: working for free...raising support) at House of Faith because that was unquestionably where God was leading me to work. It's been an adventure and a stretching, challenging time since then, but I still love it! :) Also in February, I made a wedding cake for a friend who was getting married. It was fun! :)
March...I don't remember any big happenings in March, other than my dad's birthday. :)
April started off with House of Faith family camp, and then had us making a family trip to California for a very special graduation ceremony as Caleb became a Marine--officially. :) We had a great time and we are soooo proud. And since we're talking about birthdays....Mom celebrated her birthday this month! The only other big event in April was that Amber moved into her own apartment.
In May, Josiah turned 15, I turned 25 (no, I didn't get anywhere near accomplishing everything on my list), and our House of Faith summer interns arrived! I was part of the leadership trio within the intern team (our official title was "intern coordinators") so this was a really big event in my life!
(maybe details on some of this will come later...for now, be happy. I thought of all of you. Whoever "all of you" are. :) )